Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Tater Tots


It's been 20 years since my last Tater Tot Casserole - sounds like a confession, doesn't it!! We're trying the Duggar family recipe tonight along with steamed carrots, and vanilla cake with chocolate ice cream. This is Katie's night to pick the menu.

Here's the recipe:
1 can cream of mushroom soup
1 can cream of chicken soup
1 can evaporated milk
1 lb ground beef or ground turkey
1/2 cup sauteed onions (I added this to the recipe)
Tater Tots

Ground the beef, place on bottom of 9 x 13 pan, add sauteed onions, place tater tots over ground beef. Mix soup and milk, pour over top. Bake at 350 for 1 hour!

Enjoy...I hope!

Saturday, December 26, 2009

On the "Other Side"












Shew.....we survived Christmas! Each year I pray that the month of December will be peaceful, spiritual, and relaxing. I'll give this one a 6 out of 10. In some ways, I managed to control the business at the beginning of the month, but it spun out of control at the end. The cooking is what sends me over the edge. I'm so exhausted from it all. On Christmas Eve, we had a baked potato bar, 7 layer salad, broccoli casserole, rolls, dips, ham/cheese platter, and store-bought pies. Still wore me out. Not complaining, but I'm really worn out. Highlights this year: sharing our favorite Christmas stories from childhood, Luciano rolling in catnip, the Nativity at Hayes Barton, Eric's visit, and all the laughter and hugs. Enjoy the photos!!

Thursday, December 24, 2009

The Calvary has Arrived!!



Bless my little elves....just when I was about to give up hope of getting everything together before our dinner begins at 5pm....my children have turned into "cleaning machines." Now maybe .... I can take a shower and change into something not sweatpants related!!

My Favorite Christmas Memory

When I was 5 or 6 years old, I remember a very special Christmas eve. My parents used to go to a small grocery store run by a very nice Chinese couple. On Christmas eve, they would always have treats for their customers. I loved to go in the store because everyone was so friendly and happy. Growing up in California, it was not often you had a "small town" experience, but going to this store gave me that feeling. On Christmas morning, my parents would always get up before us, light a fire in the fireplace, turn on Christmas music, and then we would excitedly run down the hall towards the living room. I had hoped for a very special doll, "Snuggle Bun." She could blink her eyes and say "Mama." She was waiting for me under the tree along with a stroller. I doubt I even changed from my pajamas before I took her outside for her first stroller ride! I think that was my most favorite Christmas gift ever.

Since I've grown-up, my favorite memories have always been Christmas Eve family gatherings. Our tradition is to have an early dinner (tonight it's a baked potato bar, salad, rolls, and pies). We always go to Hayes Barton Baptist to look at the live Nativity scene. On the way home, we drive through Brentwood Subdivision to look at the luminaries. Later we read the Nativity story, the children open their Christmas pajamas, we say prayers, and it's off to bed! One of my most favorite memories is of Daniel - age 3. He accidently turned loose our pet Hamster on Christmas Morning. All thoughts of Christmas were quickly forgotten as we hurried to find the hamster before the Cat got an unexpected Christmas gift! There was also a very, very special Christmas Eve when we had a terrible Ice Storm. A missionary couple lived across the street from us. Tabb had run out to try and find kerosene - all the power was out. Melissa had just been born. I remember sitting, all of huddled together, in the Den. The power was out, and a small fire was going in the fireplace. The sister missionary was quietly rocking my one month old baby near the fireplace. I noticed that the room was filling with smoke. Before I could say anything, a sudden whoosh happened and fire spread from the fireplace up the front of the wall. As suddenly as that happened, there was another powerful whooshing sound and the fire was sucked back into the fireplace. I've never seen anything like that before. We all realized that we had been protected from a potential disaster that Christmas Eve!

I hope that as you all reflect on the meaning of the Savior's birth, you'll also remember the importance of our showing love and appreciation for the blessings we abundantly enjoy. I can't imagine what my life would be like if it wasn't for a young girl named Diane, who by her example, led me to the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I have been blessed by a wonderful family, a Mom who is amazingly talented and thoughtful (although she would disagree) , a step-father who is one of the nicest people I have ever known, for a mother in-law who is a great example of service and kindness, for my siblings - wish we all lived closer, for a dear husband (my children are blessed to have such a great Dad), for my great kids (it's hard to put into words the great love I have for each of them), for Teresa (you are truly the sister of my heart), for Janine - she's been such a great Visiting Teacher (the best ever), for Sheila and Karen (I'm so fortunate to have such caring RS leaders), for the Quiller family (what a blessing to live near such a great family) and most important, for our Savior, Jesus Christ. I'm grateful to have the blessing of learning to be like him - I'm no where close - but I hope that throughout my life, those that know me will be able to see my desire to live by his example. Merry Christmas!!

Next year...baby Abigail will be here!!

The Greatest Blessing of All


Gordon B. Hinckley

For each of you may this be a merry Christmas. But more importantly, I wish for each of you a time, perhaps only an hour, spent in silent meditation and quiet reflection on the wonder and the majesty of this, the Son of God. Our joy at this season is because He came into the world. The peace that comes from Him, His infinite love which each of us may feel, and an overwhelming sense of gratitude for that which He freely gave us at so great a cost to Himself—these are of the true essence of Christmas.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Sacrament Meeting was exceptionally wonderful today!! It was our Christmas program. I've never heard our Ward Choir sound so "angelic." It was hard not to tear up and still see the words of the music. I have always found that music reaches my soul more profoundly than words. There's a testimony of the Lord's love for us through the amazing gift of harmonizing voices. I know that sounds kind of silly, but have you ever heard a perfectly blended chorus and you were unable to single out one voice? To me, that's one of the incredible experiences of listening to music. When you sing in a chorus, one of the most wonderful experiences is looking for the nuances in the performance of the music and then taking it to another level. I'll probably never be satisfied with what I've already experienced in music performance....I'm always wanting more!!! One of my most favorite pieces is "O Magnum Mysterium." I'll try and link it to my blog so you can fall in love with it as well. The performance is from a group I have performed with "The NC Master Choral."

Here's a wonderful quote ....thank you Katie....it really touched my heart!! (By Elder Christofferson).

Moral discipline is the consistent exercise of agency to choose the right because it is right, even when it is hard. It rejects the self-absorbed life in favor of developing character worthy of respect and true greatness through Christlike service (see Mark 10:42–45). The root of the word discipline is shared by the word disciple, suggesting to the mind the fact that conformity to the example and teachings of Jesus Christ is the ideal discipline that, coupled with His grace, forms a virtuous and morally excellent person.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Returning to "Normal"






If there is such a thing....we're actually doing something not related to sickness. Yeah!!! Of course, we have one hold out...Tabb! He's down with bronchitis. If I had an isolation room...he'd be in it. Lysol wipes have been my constant companion.....don't forget everyone......keep those hands washed! There's lots of yucky illness bugs out there.

Last night I went to a co-worker's retirement dinner. I sure love the people I work with. To be surrounded by people who have dedicated their lives to healing babies is beyond words!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Reprioritizing

Okay....I had a vision for this week off from work.... we were going to make cookies, fudge, and bread. A delicious soup was on the agenda too. I had the hope we would all gather for "game" night and I could enjoy the craziness of my crew. What's happened instead.....we'll Melissa has had count them .... "3" admissions to the hospital. I've watched my daughter struggle to breathe for days and it's not easy to watch and be helpless. I've watched my daughter have her first panic attack - she finally "melted down." Pretty understandable! A wonderful friend who happens to be a child psychologist met with Melissa. She got to the heart of the matter within minutes...Melissa was scared of more blood draws, more IV starts, and scared that Daddy would be the one taking care of her instead of Mommy. Melissa knows I'm the main one who understands how to deal with all of her med's....she apparently was worried that if Dad stayed with her at the hospital he would somehow not understand what to do. Tabb got his feelings a little hurt, but I tried to help him understand that when it comes to illness, "there's nothing like Mom." We're finally out of the hospital and hopeful that we have made our last trip. An ENT doctor found some irritation around Melissa's esophagus and vocal cords....it could be that some of her flare ups with Asthma might have been affected by reflux. We'll know more next week when she goes in for another exam.

A long post...but it' s been a looooonnngggg week!!! Now ....what's on the agenda for the remainder of my week. Nothing, but hugging on my kids, doing laundry, listening to Christmas music, and maybe...just maybe some cookie baking!

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Just sharing....

Tabb may have the flu (only got the seasonal shot). So...I've been single parenting for the last two days. Not a huge sacrifice at all, but I miss sharing the fun with him!!! Melissa is on the losing end of asthma control today --- she's been going "down" all day. We have a wonderful pediatrician who has given me another tool to use in our asthma control strategy. Instead of 2 puffs of her rescue inhaler, followed by another 2 puffs within 30 minutes - we can now try a puff a minute for 10 minutes and then one hour later - another 10 puffs per minute. I'm saying my prayers that it will work. I'm worn out for her --- can't imagine how scary it is to not be able to catch a breath. Overall, I'm just plain worried. Melissa needs everyone's faith and prayers.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

The 5 Days of Asthma

Wednesday ---- Brian calls me at work----Mom Melissa is wheezing----"Brian...give her 2 puffs on her inhaler" -----Mom ...dashing to her car-------"Brian, what is she doing now"-----Brian - "Her lips are kinda blue" ----- Mom "I'm on my way" (panicking..."maybe I should call 911----oh no---there's a wreck on Falls of Neuse." The police are blocking the road). 45 minutes later----arriving home (normally takes 12 minutes), Brian carries Melissa to the car, Dash to WakeMed, Melissa continues to struggle to breathe and is admitted to Pediatric Intensive Care. After 1 day of excellent care, she turns around (for the better) and we're discharged on Thursday. Scary...Mom, Melissa, and Dad are exhausted, but grateful. We're even grateful despite the chair from H@** that we both slept in.

Friday - she's doing great, excited about the Christmas Party at Church. We leave the house---take 5 steps into the car----the weather is below freezing. We get to the church and she starts to not feel well. On the way home from the dinner, she complains that her chest is tight again and she starts to wheeze. Two albuterol treatments - no success. She can no longer talk, lips are turning bluish, and you can audibly hear her wheezing. Off to WakeMed we go again. This time....I'm really scared. It's hard to see your child struggling to breathe. Each asthma attack seems worse than the last and requires more treatment. Melissa is admitted again to Pediatric Intensive Care. We're now home - Sunday at 12 noon. Her care could not have been better. There was an amazing team of MD's, Nurses, Asthma Educators, and Respiratory Therapists who were always available and on top of every aspect of her care. I felt sorry for the Asthma Educator---she came to talk to me after I had had 2 days of no sleep. Of course, I burst into tears, explained my fears that somehow I wasn't doing all I could to prevent Melissa from an asthma attack. She was so kind and understanding. After I apologized for "loosing it," she said that I needed a hug...and she was right! I'm tearing up as I write this, because I am overwhelmed at the kindness and support of the medical staff at WakeMed as well as the love and support of my family and church family. Tabb and Nicolas left yesterday to go to Virginia to spend time with his Mom....it was important to both of us that he go! Brian and his girlfriend, Tabitha, spent the night in the torture chair so I could go and sleep. Daniel and Robin came to visit Melissa even though Robin has been experiencing harmless, uncomfortable Braxton Hicks contractions. So...the blessings have been numerous and my sweet Melissa is home!!

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Prayers Needed


Melissa is in Pediatric Intensive Care - she's had a severe asthma attack. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Finding Balance

"What are the limits on commitment of the heart of those who pursue holiness? Fortunately, this is a matter for each to decide. We achieve perfection, however, in the doing of many things, and can be perfect in our intent to do all things." James E. Faust


Just ponder the above quote...."we can be perfect in our intent to do all things." I think it is speaking to the desires of the heart. The next time when you are overwhelmed by all the obligations of life...just think that we can become perfect in our willingness to give 100% of what the Lord requires. I also think that having a desire to do good is an essential part of growing and maturing in the gospel. The next step is truly understanding what the Lord would have you do..........we can't run faster than we are able. So prayerfully consider where the Lord would have you serve. Let him take the burden from you in achieving the balance we all so desperately seek.
Just a thought......Michelle.